No turning back

I’ve been changed. I’ve been changed and when I think about the intricacy of how it came about I smile in awe of God. I am no accident. Those nagging promptings deep within my soul…those longings for more…all of that is purposed and when I listen intentionally and am open to where God is leading I begin to see the path cleared out just for me. This path is only fit for my foot. Not one single other person on this earth can ever walk my path as it was specifically mapped out and chiseled for the things God planned for my life. In the big picture of it all…my path is less about me and more about what He intends on using me for.

As I sit on that thought I’m also left with the realization that if I don’t walk this path cleared out for me…if I for even just a little while attempt to walk someone else’s path then all He planned to use me for along the way gets left undone. Tears well up in my eyes at this thought.

This means that for each time I tried to be someone else or do what someone else was doing…each time I decided not to listen to that longing in my soul or that nagging voice within some piece of my path was missed never to be recovered again. A smile that could have graced the face of a beautiful person did not. A tear from a grieving person may not have been wiped. An encouraging word to a disappointed child wasn’t heard. A prayer for someone in need wasn’t petitioned. Who knows what didn’t come to fruition because I wasn’t being who He created me to be…I wasn’t walking in my cleared path because I was too busy listening to the noise around me. I was too distracted by someone else’s path that I missed the opportunities created just for me.

So a question was asked, who was I?

Insecure.

Unsure.

Doubtful.

Wandering…sometimes aimlessly.

Envious.

Negative of self.

Lost.

Yearning for more.

Unfocused.

Distracted.

Disconnected.

Disillusioned.

But I’ve been changed…

Who am I now?

Free.

Free to see myself as God sees me.

Free to just be me.

Free to do what only I can do.

Free to walk the path that only my feet fit.

Free to be used to my full potential.

Free.

And in this new freedom I’m ready to ask the questions…

What to You want from me, Lord?

Surrender.

No holding back.

Where are we going, Lord?

Oh, just wait and see…

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